How do you be Borg?

So many questions I have with this pump! And no one to ask! I am finding that the DOC is a hard shell to crack, lmao! I have blogger, FB, even did what I said I would never do.... Hello Twitter account! I do random comments on other Dbloggers sights... Whew! But I am still here, and still trying. There is an insulin pump support group that meets like only 4 times a year! But the next time is Sept 13th, so hopefully I can meet some pumpers that I can talk to. Where I can put the damn thing is frustrating. I don't want to use my front stomach area, as I have a lot of scar tissue from injections, and I am afraid to sleep on it, so I am only using one side of my body, and it doesn't leave me many options. Arm.. nooooo way. Back/butt area.. my pants would hit it constantly. So as you see a lot of questions, and not a single pump user around to ask, or show me, and there is only so much I can google, lol!

Then there is this whole fat thing. Now I have had diabetes for almost 18 years. I am pretty decent at carb counting, it's really not that hard. But how to tell an insulin bolus based on the carbs and level of fat? Wtf!? This is a whole other level for me. Never had to get this detailed. And have no idea how to even begin this. Your suppose to keep a food diary and see what foods hit you certain ways... Wowza. Idk about all of this. For now, I just want controlled BG's. First 2 weeks with the pump, flawless bg's, now? not so flawless. What has changed? really not much. Eating out less, eating healthier, but with higher bg's.... And then I have to start my birth control again for my PCOS. I stopped taking it, cause I have a hard time remembering, and my work shifts were all messed up. Now that things are straightened out, I get to try again. Wonder how that will effect me. God knows it made me very depressed, and I think contributed to my weight gain. Only explanation considering I am more active and eat very healthy...

So many new things, and so much change. My stress level is only slightly less elevated.

All I really want to know is... How do you be Borg?